Saturday, December 3, 2011
Well, It Has Been A WeekThis week has been busy as heck and I am glad it's over. One class down and the one I really wanted to take is next week, so hopefully next week will be better.
I can't say I have been good this week. Maybe semi. Until yesterday. My hubby annoyed me last night - he insisted on going to dinner at a local pizza joint we both love. It was a family dinner - for his birthday. The only thing this place has that is 'legal' for me to eat is a salad or wings. That sounds OK, except for one thing. I had had salad for lunch, and wings the night before for dinner. I wanted something different, a meat and veggie dinner, for a change. Plus I LOVE this place's pizza, which is hugely tempting. And I haven't had beer in awhile, which I also love. I whined my ass off, even telling him to leave me home, but my hubby was DETERMINED to go there. I was pissed. So I punished him. I ate pizza. And drank beer. And made sure he knew it was because of him. Then we left the pizza joint and went to a bar that serves my favorite high-carb beer (Blue Moon). And I had some. Then we went home. I took some aspirin for the headache I knew would come, lol. Then we watched some TV, and of course I got hungry from eating pizza, and ate some more crap snacks. Jeez. It finally ended when I went to bed.
So now it's the next morning. I don't dare weigh in or check my glucose, lol. I was still a couple pounds up from Thanksgiving, already. It will take me a few days to straighten all this out, I am sure. So. What have I learned here? My hubby thinks I was unfair to be mad at him for wanting to go there for his birthday dinner. I think he was unfair to expect me to go to a favorite haunt and eat the same stuff I had been eating for days, while he ate and drank what I love, and was not being supportive of my weight loss/health efforts. Do I really think he is trying to sabotage my efforts? Probably not. But I did think it was unfair of him to insist on going to that restaurant, knowing how I felt about it. However, I mainly punished myself. Even though I think he feels some guilt (maybe), it's me who will have to get back in line weight-wise and glucose-wise. Sigh. Will I ever learn? I should have just been a big girl and ate what I didn't want, and continued the guilt trip on him. LOL.
I just ate my leftover salad from yesterday that I didn't finish. And I am headed to my Slow Burn instructions... Time to do some exercise.
